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Update…

I’m surprised my website is still getting hits. My rantings have been limited to  140 characters over at my Twitter, I don’t see the point in bloging them any more. I don’t know about anyone who reads this, but its beginning to annoy me! I’m trying to avoid it at all costs… there doesn’t seem to be much positivity in my life these days. Sorry.

Anywho, works going fine. Hours aren’t practical right now, but hopefully after February that will change. I want to really post about something positive, but I don’t think this place is the appropriate place, specially not at this time. Maybe in a few weeks, months or years. We’ll have to see. What I want to say isn’t really for any other purpose than who it is aimed for. But another time. I may try other methods first.

I have began to make a list of things I want to complete within my lifetime.  With my friend Matthew we created a jokingly “To find” list, it currently has something like 40 things. All made within the first 10 minutes or something. Most are controversial and play with stereotypes. But I’ve also created my own personal list of what I want to achieve, and follow-through with. I know not everything will ever be completed, possibly never even attempted. But the thought counts. Martin Luther King Jnr had his own, he never managed to follow them through personally, but his memories lived on. Never know if that might be the same for you or I.

When I get around to completing my “definitives” I’ll think about posting it here. I’ve had a website idea to even let people create their own – help other strangers out in for-filling their own lists. The power of the Internet. Just because we are strangers in a civilization sense doesn’t mean to we need to be. We’re all the same species.

I’m going to take Skippy for his injections and neutering soon too. I don’t know why I’m typing thing asif I’m talking to someone, psycho.

Some people never change…

I decided to check my bank, to see how much money I had left in it. You know, to see if I could even afford to go out this new year even though the chances of me heading to town were slim. Only problem is, I’m drawn directly to a transaction that happened only yesterday whilst I was in work. I shouldn’t really be surprised. But what a fucking bitch. Some people really do not change, never will.

I’ve been hassled for the past few weeks now from HLC (Home Learning College) regarding the debt I owe them from the course I’m on. I sent them a letter not long ago arranging something, but they ignored it and decided to just pass my debt over to a collection agency. Whom have threatened me already with court. I don’t really give two shits, but I need to do something about it. My mother’s advice is the worst anyone could ever receive. Supportive my arse.

I only had around £50 in the bank. The “keep” money (£40 fortnightly), which I ALREADY GAVE HER, she decided to take. She told me on the night of boxing day that I “owed” her it. I told her straight up I owed her fuck all. She said I had to go get it from the bank, I told her no. It’s not hers. I already gave her the money – she pissed it up the wall like always. She even admitted that the money wasn’t for “food/electricity/gas” it was for HER DEBTS. I’ve always told her the keep money is NOT her money, it’s NOT for her personal debts. Not like she fucking cares.

Whilst I was in work I didn’t think of taking my bank card with me. I knew I should have. So little did I know she had taken my card and take the £40 out without my consent. Still keeping this to her fucking selfish self. Around an hour ago from the time of this post the HLC debt collection agency called me and asked for a settlement. I couldn’t and wouldn’t give them the £45 up-front payment they wanted, so I made a deal. I’d give them £20 over the phone. Thinking I had it in there, with around £20 to spare.

Of course I didn’t, she stole it. So now I’m going to be overdrawn in the bank, having to wait for my money to come through, if at all. End up paying the overdrawn debt and the overdrawn fees which are most likely to be £30. Then of course the other £20 to HLC in the next fortnight or so. None of what I have now, thanks to her.

The thing that has pissed me off the most is that she lied, stole from me again and wouldn’t even tell me when she was there that I never had the money in the bank because she had taken it out. She would have kept thing to herself for fuck knows how long.

What a great near-end to 2009. Not.

Moving

I’m seriously thinking of moving from Liverpool after the new year. The only two issues are my job, and my rabbit. Whilst I’d like to keep both of them, if I moved out I don’t think I would be able to bring my rabbit with my for at least a few months after settling in. That would really break my heart. He is the only thing I truly love deeply. I would most likely die of a broken heart once he passes – Rabbits only live for roughly 8 years on average.

I once thought perhaps moving to a different area, or to my own flat elsewhere in Liverpool would probably make me happier to stay here, but I don’t think it will after the bullshit I’ve witnessed over the past few weeks. I used to think people from Liverpool really were the nicest people you could meet (In the night time anyway). But I think I was wrong. I actually don’t know who my friends are anymore, I don’t know who actually cares about me, I don’t know who to trust. I’ve lost all sense of reading body language and being a good judge of character now. I don’t know why people really find it necessary to do things, expect something from you – you give it to them which you normally wouldn’t have, then they just chuck it in your face – it’s downright rude.

My blog is what it is, what I post on it is what I’m thinking and my opinions on things. I have to say it, if you don’t like it – fuck off, thanks. My last post would really get me a lot of bad press and negative comments (Though I don’t get any, just spam – which has disappeared off the radar too) but I really do not care. I wont support it regardless of peer pressure and being bullied into it – it enforces my point perfectly.

Some friends, who I know are friends,  have said a few things in the short amount of time that I’ve known them compared to my other friends, which I have never heard before from my friends. It just makes me feel good, wanted, loved. No one has any idea what I’ve been thinking over the past few years and I don’t think I’ll ever tell anyone. Only I hold the truth. I can easily control what comes out of my mouth… for now at least.

I’m not living up to anyone’s expectations anymore. I wont stick around if I’m uncomfortable and don’t like the situation I’m in. I’ve been living the life according to others, enough is enough. I can’t take it no more, it’s ruining who I really am deep down. I don’t think anyone has ever seen me. That’s really depressing.

War

I don’t support war or any of it’s soldiers. I’m going to explain why. Here’s an image of summary.

War helps no one. No one is a hero, no one is a maverick. No one is safe, no one is innocent. No one is protecting you or fighting for your rights by being in a war. War is a vicious circle and needs to be stopped.

War is not required. Think of it like this, millions of people die through war. I added up the minimum estimations of deaths from the wars listed on the Wikipedia pages, the minimum comes to 182,819,181 million deaths through war. All for what? World War 1 was meant to be the war to end all wars.

The army employs normal civilians. Most join for the money, lifestyle and to kill. War is murder. Being it another solider in another countries’ armed forces or be it an typical civilian. If you see a army of another country as an enemy, they see you as the enemy. So who is the real enemy? You are only going to war because your government has told you to. This is directly pointed towards innocence. War causes paranoia between countries and their governments, paranoia then leads to these wars. There is no such thing as a justified war. Not even World War 2. I’m not being disrespectful, you need respect in order to be, but just listen to my point.

The military and the war are a profitable businesses. Each year the government of not just the UK but many others increase their budgets for the military but lower those of health care and education. Aren’t those more important? Most would say no. But I’m going to disagree with you. Take history as a prime example of war being profitable. If you invade a country, take over power, what do you have? Land. What can you get from that land? Resources. What kind of resources? Coal, oil, gas, diamonds etc. What are these sold for? Money. What does that equal? Profit.

If you are a company that creates vehicles, explosives, other weaponry for wars, they make profit. These again are civilians. Every time another country progresses through it’s technological capabilities of warfare another country will raise the stakes by creating an even more destructive machine. It just keeps raising the stakes, so on and so on. What happens when these weapons are leaking onto the streets? You see it daily.

Armies will only continue to exist for as long as the human race makes them exist. The army would cease to function world wide if no one would enrol. War has nothing to do with protecting you country and it’s people (Referred to as “motherland” by most). If you have no armies, you have no threat. It’s a simple as that. All it takes is the first country to remove it’s armed forces then others following suit. But of course they wont because war is a vicious circle of paranoia and profit.

What ever happened to talking? Violence and mass murder solve nothing.

Children In Need

I have an issue with most charities, I’m not a charitable guy when it comes to money. It’s all based on my personal views of money and capitalism.  But I’m more than happy to lend a helping hand to anyone as long as they seriously need it and are thankful and continue the trade.

But recently X-Factor made me mad, same with Children In Need itself. X-Factor has gone and released a single of the finalists singing a cover of Michael Jackson’s “You Are Not Alone”. (A joke on this made me chuckle, The Telegraph commented on it saying Simon Cowell chose a Michael Jackson song for a CHILDRENS’ charity. Irony.)

iTunes sells the full single for digital download, which contains two tracks, for £1.98 – or individually at a price of £0.99p. Play.com sells the single in physical CD form for £3.99. Amazon sells it for £3.98 – both with no delivery costs. Simon Cowell said ALL proceeds go to the hospital which was a lie. He changed his statement the very next day saying £1 out of all sales will go to the hospital.

I understand these companies need to cover their operating costs, but I’m sure it wont damage them at all consider the creation costs of these singles could be zero – and all they are doing is reselling them. Let’s face it, how many people would pay the 99p on iTunes if they use it or not, for the charity cause? How many would prefer to just donate the £1 directly, say though a PayPal payment instead of receiving the song? I doubt many actually care about the song, it’ll be left to rot away in some forgotten land or later deleted from their computers the next day when they can’t stand it. So that’s one thing that annoyed me. Charity is always about the profit to be made. Capitalism wont allow you to offer something without nothing in return. Even if it was advertisement (BMIBaby, banks etc).

Now the thing that annoys me so much about Children In Need (and pretty much all charities) is they are functioning businesses, just tax-evaded on the basis of “good cause” and “charitable contributions”. They never get the message across that money is most likely (I want to say is, but I will refrain) the cause. Money isn’t the solution.